Friday, June 18, 2010

Father's Day


This picture was taken last year as we walked in the Alzheimer's Association Walk in Bricktown in honor of my father who passed away in November. You can read about that here.

The reason I picked it for this post is this...my husband Jim has shown me how a dad impacts the lives of his children. How he shows them the love of God, how he protects and provides for them.  These were not things I experienced with my own dad, but I'm so blessed to have experienced them through my husband.

You may not know that Jim's dad was not a part of his life for most of his life. Jim didn't have a healthy upbringing to show him how to be a dad. He didn't have fatherly wisdom imparted to him on a regular basis. He grew up in a single parent home with a vacant father. He saw him rarely, lived with him only shortly, and until a few years before his dad's death, didn't have a relationship with him at all. 

But my husband loves God. He has grown, studied, humbled himself, changed and through all of this, God has blessed him with a father's heart. My daughters have seen it happen, just ask them.

So Happy Father's Day, Jim!

peace.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

I've always loved Fiddler on the Roof




Do You Love Me?
Jim and I crack up at this one. "I'm your wife! I know! But do you love me?"

Sunrise, Sunset
And I love, love, love this song. So much joy, so much celebration, so much remembrance all rolled into one. I think I understand it now more than ever. One day, I would love to play the role of the mother in a stage production. Can't you just see me? :-)

peace.

Monday, June 14, 2010

so many surprises

We made a wild trip to Texas, party van of 8 including me, jim, adrian, jenny, michael, brandon, emily and gammaw! We were going for Andrea's 26th birthday and unbeknownst to almost everyone (yes, we knew and didn't tell anyone!) a surprise engagement too! These 2 videos are a little bouncy, but you'll get to share the surprise, the joy and the love that surrounded this very special event.

peace.

Surprise Birthday Party!
and then...!!

Friday, June 11, 2010

love love love

My heart is full today. I'm thinking about my older daughter, tomorrow is her 26th birthday. We're going on a road trip to celebrate with her. And I found this wonderful site for incredibly creative, beautiful jewelry. Life is beyond good!! Enjoy.


peace.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Road Trip!





White Sands in New Mexico.

The last time I was here, my children were 13 &10 and my mother-in-law was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. We're hoping this trip will be less eventful. The white sand is magical, go see it sometime.

peace.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Weddings

I always cry at weddings. They make me happy, they remind me of the blessings in my life.



My older daughter sent me this picture the other day. I will be a complete puddle when the day comes.

peace.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

love creative things


These are amazing! Click Here to see more.

Maybe this is the answer to the bad hair day!!

peace.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Pondering

a moment in Mombasa, Kenya

I read this today and it has been rolling around my spirit most of the day.

"We are always in the presence of God...There is never a non-sacred moment."

Always and never are words I reserve mostly for God. Man is so fleeting and fickle I can't believe always and never would really ever apply to us.

I love the thought of always being in God's presence. But some of my moments are far from what I would consider sacred.

Maybe it's my definition, maybe it's my sin nature, maybe it is truly a testimony to God's ultimate grace and mercy. Maybe, it's all of the above.

So, how does the presence of God feel to you, you're in it right now ya know.

peace.

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

confessions of a mini van mom

I admit it, I had one. A bright red Ford Windstar. Loved the space, loved the ride, hated the image. I'm an SUV kind of gal, but when I had kids at home who didn't drive, it sure was convenient. I had no idea I could've been this cool.



peace.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Time, she is a flying

I am looking at my calendar and just needed to breathe.

Time passes so quickly these days. I remember when days would seem so long and I have to admit, I rarely have that experience any more.

I'm trying to make sure I put the big rocks in first. Have you heard this one?



It's a great reminder of how to bring order to our lives. Granted the little rocks are always present and pretty demanding, but if the big rocks are in place, their demands aren't nearly as loud.

What are your big rocks? Mine have changed slightly over the years. Adjusting as life has changed. I'm reassessing my rocks right now. And it's good.

Ecclesiates 3:10 "God has planted eternity in the hearts of men."
Isaiah 41:13 "I am the Lord your God, who holds your right hand, and I tell you, "Don't be afraid, I will help you."

So I'll do a little waiting, a little listening and God will help me identify my big rocks.

On Christ the solid rock I stand, all other ground is sinking sand...

peace.

Monday, April 05, 2010

One of my favorites



I love Shel Silverstein. Every bit as much as Dr. Suess. Here is one of my favorites and something I really needed to hear today.

God's Wheel by Shel Silverstein

GOD says to me with a kind
of smile, "Hey how would you like
to be God awhile And steer the world?"
"Okay," says I, "I'll give it a try.

Where do I set?
How much do I get?
What time is lunch?
When can I quit?"

"Gimme back that wheel," says GOD.
"I don't think you're quite ready YET."

peace.

Monday, March 29, 2010

family



I love having my family near me. I think we underestimate the value of a close family. I did not grow up around my grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, etc. My girls have been blessed to have not only grandparents around, but great-grandparents, great aunts and uncles, cousins, aunts, uncles, etc. We don't have a big family, but what we do have, we know.

I've offered (threatened) to build a compound for our family. I like the idea of an acreage that has houses on every corner for someone and a pool, fire-pit, gathering area in the middle. Course, my family looks at me like I'm crazy, but I'm not giving up on the idea. I'm not I tell you. At least not in my head... :-)

Anyway, that's my niece and nephew up above. They call me Nana. I like it and I've known them since before they were born and I've loved them.

Isn't it great to know God has known us even longer than that and has loved us. Does love us. Just as we are, warts and all. This is one of my favorite passages of scripture. I hope it speaks to you.

peace.

Psalm 139

O LORD, you have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar.You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O LORD, you know it altogether. You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it. Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence?

If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me.
If I say, "Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night,"
even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you. For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you,when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw my unformed substance;in your book were written, every one of them,the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I would count them, they are more than the sand. I awake, and I am still with you. Oh that you would slay the wicked, O God! O men of blood, depart from me! They speak against you with malicious intent; your enemies take your name in vain! Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD? And do I not loathe those who rise up against you? I hate them with complete hatred; I count them my enemies. Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!

Thursday, March 25, 2010

I'm a sucker for babies

My own or other peoples, I just love babies. They are innocent, endearing, joyous, and just too much fun!

I'm really looking forward to this movie coming out. Buying Kleenex now.



peace.

Friday, March 19, 2010

Ready for an Adventure


I'm feeling the need for speed. Whether by car, air or sea, I want a vacation. I want long moments away, with no work to do, no pressing matters, just time.

Time to read, relax, rest, renew. Time to reconnect with myself, my husband.

I just did something I've never done before...I scheduled every day of vacation I have. I put it on the calendar at work, filled out the papers, it's done. (of course, if something comes up I can change it)

It feels good. I know there are pockets of time in my life now that are strictly for rest and relaxation. I'm liking it...a lot!

Do you plan rest time? I think I'm going to do it more. I need it, I like it, and I'm going to just do it.

Join me!

peace.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

I'm feeling especially chipper today!


Just noticed that many of things I'm emailing, tweeting, texting, etc...have !! in them. I hope I never run out of !! You just need them some days. :-) !

The sun is out, I'm seeing daffodils and other signs of spring. Life is good. My pollyanna is happy and my thoughts are running along the grateful path.

The office has been unusually quiet and I've learned that I enjoy the quiet when I'm busy...not so much when I have little to do. Have I become a human-doing instead of a human-being?

I don't think so, but it's a good reminder to me to take the time to take time. (deep, I know)

I hope your day is blessed. I hope you have moments to breathe deep, enjoy and be thankful. I hope that even in the moments of reading this, you have relaxed and smiled. If I could give you all a gift, it would be joy. True, deep, ever-present joy.

peace.

ps- I chose that picture just because it makes me laugh. You never know what you'll see in a restaurant!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Need a smile?



This makes me smile. It's our akita, Suki and she's a happy dog. She loves everyone and the more pets, pats, and snuggles the better.

I read this today and it made me smile, thought I'd share.

Matthew 10:30 "God even knows how many hairs are on your head."

Face it, God is crazy about you! THAT should make you smile. :-)

peace.

Friday, March 05, 2010

unplugged

I think I need some quiet in my life. I'm an extrovert, so quiet isn't something that comes naturally. But recently I've found myself seeking solace.

I've also discovered it is really hard to listen to small voices when the noise around you is loud. I don't mean turned up really loud, I mean coming at you from lots of sources loud.

I enjoy Facebook, Twitter, email, staying in contact...but they increase the noise. I love to read, but sometimes, more noise. I've heard of retreats where you cannot talk. Not sure I'd survive, but I'd like to try. Might look a lot like Maria and the nuns!

Anyway, sometime soon I'm going to disappear for a couple of days.

But I'll come back, cause I'll have to tell you all about it!

peace.

Thursday, March 04, 2010

I've been neglecting someone

Do you ever find yourself in that position? Taking care of everyone but yourself? Sure you do, especially if you are a parent, a spouse, a child, an aunt or uncle, grandparent...does that cover all of us? Yes, yes it does.

Life can sometimes be overwhelming. It doesn't matter who you are, what you do, where you live, how you live...Life can seem like that huge wave that sweeps over you, knocking you over, tossing you against the sand, upending you.

But there is always hope. A lighthouse that shines brightly on the coast of life. It leads us to the safe harbor where calm waters await.

I don't often read The Message version of the Bible, but I like this. Let it wash over you today.

23rd Psalm

1-3 God, my shepherd! I don't need a thing.
You have bedded me down in lush meadows,
you find me quiet pools to drink from.
True to your word,
you let me catch my breath
and send me in the right direction.

4 Even when the way goes through
Death Valley,
I'm not afraid
when you walk at my side.
Your trusty shepherd's crook
makes me feel secure.

5 You serve me a six-course dinner
right in front of my enemies.
You revive my drooping head;
my cup brims with blessing.

6 Your beauty and love chase after me
every day of my life.
I'm back home in the house of God
for the rest of my life.

peace.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Okie Blog Awards


So the Winners have been announced and although I am not among them, I do want to say thanks to everyone who supported me during this process.

Being nominated was a big deal to me! I found myself in some amazing company, surrounded by blogs of surpassing quality and style. If you haven't had a chance to check out all the nominees, I would highly recommend doing so.

This ugly duckling was very honored to hang with the swans. Thanks for the opportunity!

peace.

pdjsphotos little duckie

Friday, February 19, 2010

Milestones

Baobob Tree - African milestone

I like to mark the milestones in life. It reminds me of the ground I've traveled, gives me perspective. Shows me all the goodness along the way and how it encircles the pain, cushioning the impact on my long term journey. This week I have celebrated my husband's 49th birthday, the 27th anniversary of our first date, my nephew's 17th birthday, and the 28th birthday of a new friend in our lives. Lots of milestones.

We all know stuff happens. We fall down, we get bumped and bruised and beat up. But as I look at the milestones laid in the path of my life, I also see the joy, the celebration and the reward that some of the most painful times in my life have been surrounded by, under-girded with.

I know I'm a Pollyanna and I like it. I like seeing my cup not only half-full, but over-flowing most days. I am so blessed. Not necessarily by the world's standards, although I have more than I ever dreamed possible. But I am blessed to know that today doesn't determine forever, and if it does somehow, God is still in control. He didn't wake up suddenly, slap his forehead and cry out "Great! I missed that one. Better luck next time." He is not surprised by anything. There are no jump scenes for Him.

Aren't you glad? Doesn't that fill your cup just a little bit more?

I hope so.

I'm celebrating Friday today. I'm glad the weekend is near. I hear rest calling my name and I'm really hoping to answer. :-)

peace.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

This house of mine


I'm learning patience. I'm not very good at it, but I'm better than I used to be. My house has been a great teacher. There are lots of projects to be done. We knew that when we bought the house. But the projects we planned for are not the projects we've gotten to do.

I'll suffice it to say, the inspector must have been on the seller's payroll. :-)

Isn't life a lot like our house? It seems to be heading one way, with one set of rules, one set of plans and then the plans change. I had one expectation moving into this house, my expectation was the house was sound but needed updating. It was not. So we've spent time and money repairing and replacing, we've had to put updating on the back burner.

Even so, we've lived here 4 years. We've celebrated, mourned, partied, cried, laughed, enjoyed, and so on. The plans we had for the house have not stopped our living in the house.

It's been a lot like life. Life ebbs and flows, it moves and slows, it is sometimes sweet and sometimes difficult. But it doesn't just stop, until it's over.

So I'm enjoying our life and our 1974 house. I smile when I look in our wet-bar, at the smoky glass and brown counters. I think of the cocktail parties it must have seen.

Enjoy today, you are not promised tomorrow. And if all else fails, swing by for a cocktail, I'll be the one in the leisure suit.

peace.

Friday, February 12, 2010

all this talk of love...



I love Valentine's Day. Not for the commercial aspect, I avoid that religiously, but I love that there is a day set apart to celebrate love.

As a christian, I believe my greatest responsibility is to show God's love. I recently read a short story, confirming in my mind, love is our greatest witness and gift.

From Max Lucado's He Still Moves:

A Morsel of Kindness

Suppose someone has enough to live and sees a brother or sister in need, but does not help. Then God's love is not living in that person.
I John 3:17


Leo Tolstoy, the great Russian writer, tells of the time he was walking down the street and passed a beggar. Tolstoy reached into his pocket to give the beggar some money, but his pocket was empty. Tolstoy turned to the man and said, "I'm sorry, my brother, but I have nothing to give."

The beggar brightened and said, "You have given me more than I asked for--you have called me brother."

To the loved, a word of affection is a morsel, but to the love-starved, a word of affection can be a feast.


Happy Valentine's Day! Let no one's path you cross today be love-starved.

Belly up to the bar, I'm spreading the love!!

peace.




(photo from Flickr by *omnia*)

Monday, February 08, 2010

Final Ballot



So the nominations are in and believe it or not, I'm on the ballot! I'm actually really excited about this. My blog has been a place of pouring out my heart, my thoughts, my weirdness, etc. I never really thought other people would be that interested (or entertained, hmmm) anyway, I hope that my words have somehow blessed you.

Here's the link. Go check out all the amazing bloggers in OK. This list is only a representation of the talent in our state and I am humbled to be on the list. A little verklempt even...

My thought for today is this - Life is the art of drawing without an eraser. As I have blogged for all these years, I sometimes look back and see how life has progressed. Although the picture may not always turn out the way I want it to, overall the artwork that is my life is pretty dang beautiful. I'm glad that for the most part, God holds the brush. He's got a good eye for beauty.

peace.

Thursday, February 04, 2010

Challenges


We all face them. They come in all shapes and sizes. Sometimes they come when we're ready and prepared, more often than not, they come when we are vulnerable or weak. But they come.

I've recently faced a few. But I'm learning with challenges come opportunities.

I have the opportunity to trust God more, to lean on His peace that passes all understanding. I have the opportunity to pray and listen...or maybe listen and pray. I have the opportunity to allow the faith God has given me to get some exercise and maybe even bless someone else in the process. I have the opportunity to BE a follower of Christ, which means I must be going somewhere. I have the opportunity to stand on the solid rock, hide in the cleft of His love, rest in green pastures, be still and know He is God...and I am not.

Jeremiah 29:11-13 says "For I know the plans I have for you", says the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Then you call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart."

I have the opportunity to believe that what God says He will do, He will do.

peace.

Monday, February 01, 2010

Winds of Change


I sometimes feel like the woman in Chocolat, she would sense the wind blowing, the change coming and she would move on. If you've seen the movie, her reasons were tied to things mine are not, but change happens anyway.

Recently, I've been feeling the winds of change blowing. I don't know why or in what way, but they are blowing none the less. I think sometimes I sense change long before it happens because God loves me and wants me to know something is coming, wants me to know I need to be praying and listening. I love that about Him, He's gentle with me.

My life has been full of changes. Some wonderful and some very painful. Some I saw coming from a long way off and some smacked me as they blew over me and knocked me down. I think my one solace in all of this is that I know without a shadow of a doubt that God is the same yesterday, today and forever. Hebrews 13:8 says it plainly. He never changes. I can always count on Him.

So I'm enjoying the breeze. I'm praying and listening. I'm waiting on God. And I just might go watch Chocolat.

peace.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

ICEPOCALYPSE 2010!!


Oklahomans are bracing for what seems to be a very bad ice/snow storm. We've seen some pretty bad ones, we understand the cost. Christmas 2009 was an example of the power of weather. My friend, jenX67, talks about another not-too-distant one in 2007. I've lived through some doozies. Trees splitting, power lines crashing, roofs caving, etc. I know some people have even lost their lives and loved ones in some of these storms. So prepare. Here's a couple of great articles on preparing.

I believe in being prepared. I believe that you should have some basic necessities just in case. Candles, flashlights, extra batteries, blankets, warm clothes, water, alternate heat source, food, way to stay in contact, etc.

BUT

I don't believe you should live in fear, panic, desperation and worry. I don't believe that reacting instead of acting is in anyone's best interest.

And I know that God is in control. Whatever comes, it's not a surprise to Him. His words spoke everything we know into existence. His breath gave us life. His sacrifice gave us the opportunity for an amazing eternity. And this gift is yours...

So if you lose your electricity, read this by candlelight and know that God loves you.

peace.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Happy Birthday Dad



I've been a little retrospective today. When I got to work, I realized it was my dad's birthday, or would have been. He would have been 71 today.

In a perfect world, we would have been celebrating together at some point. Birthdays are a big deal in my family. It's that one day in the year that we can celebrate the individual. Show them they are special to us and loved.

But Alzheimer's changed all of that, at least for dad. He wouldn't have known today was his birthday. He wouldn't have known he was 71. He wouldn't have known me.

If your life has not been touched by this disease, count your blessings today. If it has, fight with me to end it in our generation. Tell everyone you know, ask for their help, spread the word in your community, give your money, give your time, pray, please just do something to make sure the world knows that one of the greatest thief's we know of is still on the loose.

That's not all...I am celebrating my dad today, too. I'm celebrating that he is released from this world, he is in heaven with our Savior, and I bet he's fishing with my grandpa. At least that's what he thought heaven would be like.

peace.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

2009 Okie Blog Awards

So, if you have read my blog for any amount of time, you've gotten a pretty good sense of who I am. If you're new here, it shouldn't take long to figure out that I'm pretty out-spoken, compassionate until it sometimes hurts and a real mama bear for any cub I choose to adopt, protect, care for, love, give birth to, whatever... :-)

If you like what you read, I want to ask a favor of you. I know I can nominate myself, but yeah....so I'm asking you to do it for me. The rules are simple and here's a link rules and here are the categories. Basically you have to send an email to 2009okieblogawards@gmail.com, include your name, the name of my blog ramblings of a creative mind unleashed and my url http://www.gr8fulg.blogspot.com. Then choose a category in which to nominate me. That's all...and thanks!

I think this is pretty cool and my friend JenX67, is putting a lot of work into it.

And just like they say at the Oscars, it's an honor just being nominated! :-)

peace.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

You Don't Know My Jesus

I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ. Mohandas Gandhi.

Some days, I really agree with him. When I hear people in times of great tragedy talking about the judgement of God, I wince, I hurt.

It is true that the God I serve is just and holy. He is the almighty God. But it is also true that His compassion is incomparable, His love is without measure and freely given. As the people of Haiti experience this great tragedy, God is with them. He loves them, He weeps for them, He is there for them.

As Christians, Christ-followers, we should be no less. It is our job to reflect our Lord, not define Him. It is our job to be obedient, not leading the charge. It is our job to love, as Christ first loved us and gave His life for us.

My heart is breaking today for the thousands of Haitians impacted by this great tragedy. I am praying they will see God's love, feel His compassion, understand He is grieving with them and let Him hold them as they heal.

"Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed," says the LORD, who has compassion on you." Isaiah 54:10


peace.

Friday, January 08, 2010

Change of Life

No, not THAT change of life...although my mother does keep giving me things that say "you're still hot it just comes in flashes now" hmmm...this change of life involves location.

My husband and I have been empty-nesters for four-ish years. We've had the occasional guest for a time, but our daughters moved out. They have both lived within 5 miles of us, so it wasn't horrible. If I needed a fix, they were close by. :-)

Until tomorrow.

Tomorrow begins a new chapter in our life. Our older daughter is moving to Euless, TX. I know it's not very far away and I'm really excited for her. It also give me a great reason to go to IKEA...I mean Texas... to visit.

But it will be different and I will cry. I always cry. I try really hard not too, but the leak is inevitable. Hopefully, I can do it while she's not looking (but I am afraid the 20 pound eyelids may give me away).

All of life has been an adventure, so here's to our newest one. I have a feeling I'll be seeing the Red River a lot more often.

peace.

Saturday, January 02, 2010

Trash and Treasure


OK, so the treasure part first. I went to see Avatar in 3D and it is beyond amazing. The visual artistry created by this new genre of film made me feel just like the first time I saw Star Wars in the theatre. I had never seen anything like it before. It was beautiful and intriguing and I would highly recommend seeing it.

So now the trash part...I could not believe how disgusting the theatre was after the movie was over! Is it really so hard to take out and throw away the things you brought in with you? I understand accidental spills, but to just toss trash on the floor of the theatre is just utter disregard for something that is not yours. You are paying for the right to watch the movie, not trash the theatre. Come on folks, clean it up! Quit being lazy and take care of your own stuff. Teach your children better manners. Be an example of goodness.

Or don't complain when you pay $15 to go sit in a theatre and your feet stick to the floor.

I keep hearing that song "Don't lay that trash on Oklahoma!" Today it is trash in a theatre, tomorrow trash on the road or your neighbors yard...is this the world you want to live in? Not I.

Please help me, let's all just pick it up, ok?

peace.

Thursday, December 31, 2009

so why this blog name and what's up in 2010

When I started blogging I wanted a place where I could put my thoughts, feelings, observations, advice, wisdom, funny stuff, recipes, etc. It all seemed pretty random and although I'm a just-the-facts kind of gal at work, I do tend to ramble when telling stories, which I love to do. Plus it's my blog so I could be totally unfettered by any expectations other than my own.

I've lived most of my life taking care of people. I'm a first born, an over-achiever, with a much younger sibling, inattentive parents, and a mother-nature kind of heart. When my parents divorced I was 16, went to work full-time while finishing high school and then to college. I married at 19, was a mom of 2 by the time I was 22 and have spent the bulk of my adult years married to my best friend and raising the two most incredible daughters.

In the last few years, I've cared for my alzheimer's dad until his death in November. So now I'm reassessing. What does life look like in 2010?

I'm still married...26 years and counting. I want to spend more time dating my husband. Enjoying the freedom we have as a couple without children at home, without great responsibilities from others. I want to find more things to do together. I want to serve together more. Be involved together more.

I'm still a mom...but my daughters are 23 and 25 and discovering what their lives look like as adults. I enjoy watching, participating, supporting...but I'm an observer now, not a coordinator. :-)

And then there is me. What do I want to do for me this year? I want to know God more this year. Spend time with Him. Listen to Him. I want to do more art, learn more, express more, develop more as an artist. I want to get into shape this year, but not by dieting and exercising on a plan...I want to invest in my health and longevity by changing habits, making the effort to invest in me. I want to get more manis and pedis.

I want to dance more...sing more...celebrate more! Life is too short and moves too quickly not to spend a little time every day celebrating that today is a gift! Tear that wrapping off and get to the good stuff. Hug someone you love, HECK, hug someone you barely know. Play a game, do a puzzle, go for a walk, snuggle more...and remember always God loves you.

peace.

Monday, December 28, 2009

trust AND follow

So I had this thought hit me yesterday. We were at Frontline with our daughters and the guy speaking made this comment "It's good to trust in God and to follow Him..." and it hit me, do I only trust? Am I really following Christ?

I have watched my life be built, brick upon brick, layer upon layer, on an unshakable foundation of trust in the Lord. I have faced all manner of events and situations with the absolute knowledge that I trust God and I know He has a plan for me. Jeremiah 29:11-14 is one of my life passages of scripture.

But do I follow Him? Do I stop, look and listen to where He is leading me? Or do I set off on a path, knowing He'll take care of me, trusting in His ever-present help in times of trouble?

Honestly, I don't know. But if the thought hit me that hard, I think I need to find out. God is subtle with me that way. Kind of like a hammer to the head of a nail. But really, sometimes it takes that with me. I reach the end of my chain at a dead run and like the old cartoons, it pulls tight, lifts me off my feet and BOOM! on my butt I sit.

So, here I sit. Pondering...what does it really, truly mean to follow Christ? Not the Sunday school answers that pop into my head, but the heart-felt, will-bending, I-know-that-I-know kind of answer.

Well, I'm going to find out.

peace.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

A Timely Reminder


My friend, Jen, posted this the other day and I wanted to share it with you.

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow wrote this Christmas poem, Christmas Bells, during the American Civil War, 1864. It appears in many Christian hymnals under the title I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day, however, the fourth and fifth stanzas, which speak of battle, are usually omitted.

I heard the bells on Christmas day
Their old familiar carols play,
And wild and sweet the words repeat
Of peace on earth, good will to men.

And thought how, as the day had come,
The belfries of all Christendom
Had rolled along the unbroken song
Of peace on earth, good will to men.

Till ringing, singing on its way
The world revolved from night to day,
A voice, a chime, a chant sublime
Of peace on earth, good will to men.

Then from each black, accursed mouth
The cannon thundered in the South,
And with the sound the carols drowned
Of peace on earth, good will to men.

It was as if an earthquake rent
The hearth-stones of a continent,
And made forlorn, the households born
Of peace on earth, good will to men.

And in despair I bowed my head
"There is no peace on earth,” I said,
“For hate is strong and mocks the song
Of peace on earth, good will to men.”

Then pealed the bells more loud and deep:
“God is not dead, nor doth He sleep;
The wrong shall fail, the right prevail
With peace on earth, good will to men.”


With all the talk of war, inflation, recession, unemployment, healthcare, etc... I just wanted to remind myself that greater is HE that is in me, than he that is in the world. I am rejoicing today for my Savior is born! And I'm resting in the knowledge that He has already prevailed with Peace on Earth and Good Will to men.

peace...and Merry Christmas!!

Monday, December 21, 2009

It's UPtime America!

If you see injustice, STAND UP
If something needs to be said, SPEAK UP
If you make an appointment, SHOW UP
If you make a mistake, FESS UP
If you’re overstepping, BACK UP
If you get behind, CATCH UP
If they knock you down, GET UP
If you’re out of line, STRAIGHTEN UP
When your boss instructs, KEEP UP
When your elders speak, LISTEN UP
When your teachers teach, SIT UP
When your preachers preach, WAKE UP
When your country calls, MAN UP
Ladies too... WOMAN UP
When the fight is over, MAKE UP
If you’re being hard, EASE UP
If your heart is closed, OPEN UP
If you want to buy something, SAVE UP--
It’s not an entitlement, so SHUT UP!
If you make a mess, CLEAN IT UP
If you drop trash, PICK IT UP
If a car is waiting for you to
walk across the street, SPEED IT UP
If you’re cold busted, GIVE IT UP
If people fall down, HELP THEM UP--
Not the government, YOU STEP UP
If idiots start fighting, BREAK IT UP
If the music is wholesome, TURN IT UP
If the message is poisonous, THROW IT UP
If your words are vulgar, CLAM IT UP
If your words encourage, KEEP IT UP
If your pants are baggy, PULL THEM UP
If the belt’s too loose, CINCH IT UP
If your fly is down, ZIP IT UP
If you’re dressed half naked, COVER IT UP
If you can’t afford stuff, PASS IT UP--
No “bailouts” folks, PONY UP
If you made a promise, you BACK IT UP
And you can take your whining and PACK IT UP
It’s called personal responsibility, so TAKE IT UP
This country was founded on it, you can LOOK IT UP
It’s the American way people, so TURN IT UP
Because when life gets boring, you SHAKE IT UP
When life is good, you SOAK IT UP
When life’s unfair, you SUCK IT UP
When life is funny, you can YUCK IT UP
When life is sad, just LOOK STRAIGHT UP
And life’s too short people, so LIVE IT UP!


Or you can watch this or go here.

I have always told my kids that their response is their responsibility. She just takes it to a whole new level.

We are so blessed as a nation that we have become lazy and selfish. It's time to give it up, stand up and get this nation headed in the right direction - UP!

This was my motivation for today, just thought I'd share.

peace

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Christmas in Oklahoma





One of my favorite things this time of year are all the Christmas lights. Here are just a few I've seen this year. All these photos are from my phone. Hope it lends some Christmas spirit to you!

peace.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Never done this before...

Ok, so for a long time, my husband and I have celebrated our anniversary in November by taking the day off and doing all our Christmas shopping. We love it, it's peaceful, no one else is out and walking across a parking lot is not a near death experience!

NOT this year...I was out of town, he was out of town and life invaded to the point that we are now 11 days from Christmas and I have 1 present purchased...and it was online.

Now I'm not saying panic has set in...it has, but I'm not saying!! I went to Walmart for groceries and barely escaped with my life. And that was INSIDE the store, I'm not even talking about the parking lot!

So hubbie and I are now making a plan. I'm wondering what stores are open at 1:00 am, would we be safe to shop then and how much can I get at Walmart and 7-11?

Those gift cards are looking better and better...and besides, they buy more after Christmas right? RIGHT? I mean that could be my reason...couldn't it??

peace?? :-)

Friday, December 11, 2009

Thoughts for today...

It's been pretty quiet at work this week. I'm grateful for the slow down, but it does give me time to think...here are some of the random thoughts I've had.

I was calendaring some work items and saw my dad's b-day in January, just couldn't make myself take it off the calendar for next year.

Andrea is graduating from college on Saturday, wonder what new dates we'll be celebrating next year?

Is 2010 the year I'll lose this weight?

Wonder what my future (as in they aren't even dating anyone kind of future) sons-in-laws birthdays will be?

Wow, it's 2010 already!

What day of the week is Jim's 50th b-day on? WOW, I'm married to an almost 50 year old!! (2011)


I'm not sure quiet time is good for me. Too much thinking, too many possibilities. But it also gives me time to reflect on good things. I try to be a grateful person. I think it's important to recognize goodness everywhere you can.

So here's my grateful list:

I'm grateful for my relationship with God. He is my strength, my comfort, my guide, my peace and my safe harbor. I cannot imagine life without His ever present goodness in my world.

I'm grateful for my husband. He is my best friend.

I'm grateful for my daughters. They bring me such JOY!

I'm grateful for my mom and sister. For my brother-in-law, my niece and nephew. They add color to my world.

I'm grateful for good friends, long-time friends, new friends, twitter friends, facebook friends...The support and love they offer without strings, a constant source of encouragement to me.

I'm grateful for a job I love, with people I love, doing work that daily impacts the souls of men, bringing hope where there is very little, and welcoming people into an eternity with Christ.


OK, so time isn't so bad. It's refocused me and I hope it has blessed you and challenged you to take some time and be grateful as well.

peace.

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

The Winner's Circle

Another timely reminder of God's love from Max Lucado's When Christ Comes. Hope it blesses you!

"The Lord will reward everyone for whatever good he does, whether he is slave or free." Ephesians 6:8

For all we don't know about the next life, this much is certain. The day Christ comes will be a day of reward. Those who went unknown on earth will be known in heaven. Those who never heard the cheers of men will hear the cheers of angels. Those who missed the blessing of a father will hear the blessing of their heavenly Father. The small will be great. The forgotten will be remembered. The unnoticed will be crowned and the faithful will be honored.

The winner's circle isn't reserved for a handful of the elite, but for a heaven full of God's children who "will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him" James 1:12


Did you notice that last part? The part about love? That really is all, God loves us and He wants our love in return. No works, no ultimate sacrifices, no grand deeds...just a loving relationship. Accept His loving offer of salvation through Christ's love displayed on the cross and enter into the Winner's Circle. I'll be there waiting, too.

peace.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Dad is at peace

The phone rang at 2:30am this morning, hospice telling us that dad was declining and we needed to come. So I went.

Jenny was there as I walked in the door, eyes dewy and sleepy. Dad was breathing, intermittently and shallow.

We talked to him, joined hands and prayed over him and told him it was okay to go on home. We spoke in quiet tones as we watched the life our dad lived for 70 years slowly ebb away. He didn't struggle, he just slowly stopped breathing.

We made our phone calls, began collecting ourselves, and made the trek home. Our conversations have been about details and plans to be made. Arranging our week to make space to say our final goodbye to dad.

Truth be told, we've been saying goodbye a little at a time. Alzheimer's steals so much for so long. We've said little goodbyes all along the path of this journey.

So now the time has come. We are grateful for the support of family and friends. But most of all, we are thankful for the goodness, grace and support God has showered on us during this most difficult journey.

And we are at peace.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

I think I'm missing a gene


Not for any other reason than I hate to shop. I don't like crowds and there is NO deal that would make me want to get out of bed at 3:00 am to go buy something.

I don't understand it and to be very honest, I don't want to. I know many lovely people who get very excited this time of year. Their plans are made, their sale papers are marked, and their wallets are ready. (I hope with cash). Personally, I will be very sure not to clog the lines or get in their way. I will be home. Warm, snuggly and relaxed.

I'm also at the point in life that I don't want something else to dust. Give me the gift of an evening of games, dinner out, a girl's night or a movie. I don't need or want another whatever to clutter my full home. The older I get the more I realize that owning stuff is a fine line too easily crossed over...soon your stuff owns you.

So here is my plan. I will not go shopping, I will stay home. I will not make a Christmas list of stuff but of times I would enjoy. I will offer to others gifts that I believe will touch their hearts, even if they take my time and energy. I will not wait until Christmas to give the most important gift I possess, love.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Be ThankFULL!

peace.

p.s. the cat pic is Henry, my sis' cat, and it's just because. :-)

Monday, November 16, 2009

A Christmas Carol



I got to see the newest version of A Christmas Carol and I loved it!!

The animation is incredible, the 3-D is a wonderful touch and I would highly recommend it. I would not take small children, it is dark and scary in some places)


I have always loved the Albert Finney version called Scrooge. But then, I love musicals!!

So get yourself ready for the season and go see this film.

peace.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I'm Official

I've recently joined the Okie Bloggers, as you can see to your left, and I somehow feel more official now.

I've blogged about many things during my time with a blog. Gators, kids, marriage, alzheimers, boyscouts, faith and just stuff. I blog to put my thoughts about things somewhere I can find them. If you have read them along the way, that's the bonus for me.

I named my blog Ramblings of a creative mind unleashed because I am sort of random. I have often said I have a trivial mind, I know little bits about a lot of things. Enough to be dangerous so I've heard. :-)

Anyway...today's randomness is laughter. I love a good laugh. I follow The Pioneer Woman mostly because she makes me laugh. She lives her life with remarkable humor and joy. I enjoy that a great deal.

I also enjoy my friends Dwayne and Barb. They like to laugh, a lot! We play cards monthly and I never leave their company without at least one good guffaw! Here they are...


My friend Ellen is also a favorite to have a giggle with. The first time her daughter-in-law met me, we were so caught in the throws of laughter, she thought we were drunk. We weren't. We don't need to be...although being a little tired does help, we just get funnier and funnier. :-)

So here's my advice today -- go have a good laugh! Laughter is the Best Medicine according to Reader's Digest and to me. Life is tough and hard and God has given us the gift of laughter as a release. Give yourself the gift of laughter today. If you can't find it yourself, maybe this will help, my GIFT to you.

peace.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Memory Walk 2009



So we went, we walked and we'll remember. I think the most overwhelming aspect of the walk was not the number of people (over 700), or the music or activities...it was one woman's story.

Maria's family suffers from familial alzheimer's. Her grandmother died of it when she was in her 20's, she never knew her grandmother without it. Maria's mom has it and her 17 year old son has never known his grandmother without it. 3 of her aunts and 3 of her uncles have it. Out of Maria's grandmother's 13 children, that makes 7 children with alzheimer's. Maria's family begins showing symptoms in their late 40's or early 50's. Maria looks to be around 40.

As I listened to her story, I felt such sorrow for this family's legacy. As devastated as my sister and I have been by alzheimer's dad's slip into oblivion, we have no concept of the curse this family lives under.

Looking at everything, here is where I come back to. God is good, all the time and all the time, God is good. He has blessed us beyond our wildest dreams and our biggest hopes. He has supported us, provided for us, given us peace that passes all understanding. I can't fully explain the hope that resides in me but I know where my hope comes from. And I am truly grateful. I cannot imagine living this life without the abiding presence of my Savior, my Creator.

Thank you for supporting me in your thoughts, your prayers, with your flowers and the names of your loved ones, and with your money.

I am more determined than ever to raise the awareness of people about this devastating disease. Maria's family deserves a new heritage.

peace.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

From my friend, Ellen

This post was written by my dear friend, Ellen. Her mother also lives with alzheimer's. We are making this journey together, hand in hand, heart to heart. We understand each other and our stories are similar.

Just click on the title above and I hope you are touched by her post. I was.

peace.

Monday, October 19, 2009

the Voice of Truth

I have always loved "Voice of Truth" by Casting Crowns. I think in many ways, it's been my mantra in life. I am a self-proclaimed Pollyanna. I really do believe God is in control and things will work themselves out, regardless of the voices I hear.

Recently, it's been a little more difficult, but I still believe none-the-less.

In Isaiah 43:2 it says "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze."

It's comforting to know God is always at work on my behalf, but did you see the "through" part? God will be with me WHILE I'm passing through the water. He promises the river will not sweep OVER me and I pass through. He says when I'm WALKING through the fire, I won't be burned.

Well, the good news is I've been going through it. The better news is I have known each and every moment that God is with me. He is my good shepherd, my comfort, my provider, my strong tower. He is my peace in chaos, my salve when I feel wounded and my support.

Here are the song lyrics:

Oh,what I would do to have
the kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown
Where Jesus is,
And he's holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name
and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
time and time again
"Boy, you'll never win,
you'll never win."

But the Voice of truth tells me a different story
the Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the Voice of truth says "this is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth

Oh, what I would do
to have the kind of strength it takes
To stand before a giant
with just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound
of a thousand warriors
shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out
my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
time and time again
"Boy you'll never win,
you'll never win."

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the Voice of truth says "this is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth

But the stone was just the right size
to put the giant on the ground
and the waves they don't seem so high
from on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
when I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
singing over me

But the Voice of truth tells me a different story
The Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me (calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe (I will choose to listen and believe)
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth

I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe the Voice of truth
I will listen and believe
'Cause Jesus you are the Voice of truth
And I will listen to you.. oh you are the Voice of truth


So I'm listening...

peace.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

2 Weeks from Today

I'll be doing something I've never done before. Something that is so exciting, a little scary and I'll need help accomplishing.

I'm walking in the Alzheimer's Association Memory Walk. And no, I won't need help walking. :-)

If you have read this blog for long, you know my dad has alzheimers. You can read more about him here.

You may have also read about me, my sister and our families doing the walk here.

If you have, would you consider supporting us? Would you give a little bit of money to help end this life stealing, family burdening, horrible-awful-no good-very bad disease?

I cannot fully express our greatfulness. If alzheimer's has touched someone you know, you understand.

One more thing, if alzheimer's has touched your life or someone you know, tell me their name, I'll make them a flower, and I'll wear it while I'll walk. I'll wear it and we'll all say together that it's time to end this plague. Post a comment here or email me at gr8fulg(at)gmail.com.

Thanks again for your support!

peace.

Friday, October 09, 2009

I love Oklahoma

I was born here and for most of my life, I've lived here. I got married in Oklahoma and have raised my family here, too.

It is so exciting to me to see the rejuvenation of our city. Bricktown, MidTown, and Downtown are once again full of people, life, music, art and great food. We need more things to fully flesh out the area, but we're working on it.

I sometimes grow weary and a little impatient with people who complain about the short-comings in OK. Have you been to the OKC Museum of Art, Bricktown, Civic Center Music Hall, National Cowboy & Western Heritage Museum, IAO Gallery, [Artspace]at Untitled, the Paseo? And that's just the beginning!!

And foodies? Here ya go! Eat Local in OKC

I remember as a child, not going to Downtown. It was dark and lonely down there. A trip to the Civic Center was an occassion for conversations about safety, stay by me and walk quickly.

But we're doin' fine Oklahoma. We taken the challenge and we're seeing the benefits. For those of you who don't know about us, we are a strong, resilient, kind, generous, funny group of folks. We are educated, refined, redneck, cowboy, ballerinas, orchestral musicians, professors, football players and so much more.

The waving wheat still smells sweet but so does the scent of renewal and revitalization.

I'm proud to be an Oklahoman. We're not New York or Washington DC or Austin or anywhere else...but we're good and we're getting better. I wouldn't want to live anywhere else. We know we belong to the land and the land we belong to is grand!

peace.

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Looking at Life

My life has been defined by so many stages.

I was a kid for a while. I was a teenager, but only until 16.

My parents divorced, we moved to another state and my mom and I became roommates, sharing the responsibilities, bills and raising of my 11 year old sister. I ceased being a kid and quickly became an adult working 35 hours a week and finishing high school. We survived.

I went to college at 18, married at 19, became a mom at 20. I was then a wife and mom. Staying at home when many women were "having it all, being it all". At 22, I had my second daughter and life was defined.

My children are now 22 and 25. I am now an empty-nester. I work full-time. I'm a wife. I'm an aunt, sister, daughter and care-taker of my alzheimers dad. Some day I maybe a mother-in-law, maybe a grandmother.

But most of all, I'm just me. The things in my life and throughout my life God has used to shape me. I haven't always liked me, but I'm liking me more than ever. I've been given so much, filled with so much, and I'm really glad I'm at the point of life that I enjoy sharing what I have to offer. I really do love my life. It's not always pretty, but it's mine.

I'll keep it and I'll be me. Are you glad you are you?

peace.

Thursday, October 01, 2009

Couldn't have said it better...

Guest post from my sister Jenny...

My Dad, Jim Pitts lives with advanced Alzheimers.
3 months ago we had to move him into a fulltime nursing care facility. My sister and I assist his nursing home in caring for him and providing for him. Our families together are walking in honor of who he is and who he was, not who he has become because of this horrible disease.

We are determined to make a difference in the fight against Alzheimer's disease. By participating in the 2009 Alzheimer's Association Memory Walk®, My family is committed to raising awareness and funds for Alzheimer research, care and support. Michael, myself, Brandon and Emily hope to raise at least $100.00 each to help.

Currently more than 5 million Americans have Alzheimer's, and 78 million baby boomers are at risk – unless we find a way to change the course of the disease.

I want to do my part to fight this disease, but I need to ask for your support! Please make a donation to help the Alzheimer's Association advance research into prevention, treatments and a cure for Alzheimer's. For the millions already affected by the disease, the Association offers care, education, support and resources in communities nationwide.

On behalf of myself, my family and the millions of Americans who are living with this disease, thank you for supporting my efforts. We're on the MOVE to end Alzheimer’s!

Here are the links to our fundraising pages, we'd love your help! Send us a flower to wear too! Click here for flower info.

Jenny's Page

Glynis' page

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

The measure of a man



It's been a week. So in the last seven days, alzheimers dad has become very violent, hallucinating frequently, combative and cranky. He's thrown his cup at the wall, hit people, tried to strangle a nurse (she's fine), yanked out IVs, and is constantly chattering to these very small children he sees running all around his room. He has been checked in to a geriatric psych ward for a full evaluation...medical, mental, emotional, etc...he's been on quite a roller-coaster ride this week. It has not been pretty.

But, this is not my dad.

My dad is a big cowboy. He's a glassblower and a fabulous cook. He can fix anything, make anything and can tell the best stories because he's been a Boy Scout all his life. He loves to hunt and fish, go camping, go anywhere really. He is a generous man, willing to help anyone that will ask or anyone that is in need.

He was always great with teenagers. They loved him! He'd sing silly songs, he chaperon trips, he was always up for an adventure.

We were never rich, far from it, but I never knew as a kid that we were poor. We always had people around, we were the fun party house. Not the liquor kind of party, the turn your house into an amusement park for Halloween kind of house.

So here is what I've decided. I will remember my dad. My memories of him are built from a lifetime with him, not a disease that has claimed him and changed him. I am sorry the people who now care for him will never truly know him, but I know him.

So this year, I'm walking in the Alzheimer's Association Memory Walk on October 24. I want to walk and remember. I want to walk and share. I want to shake my fist in the face of this awful, life-altering disease and say You Will Not Win. And I want you to help me.

I've come up with an idea. I love giving flowers to people. I refuse to only send them to funerals. So...print out this flower, do whatever you want to it, send it to me (address below) and I'll wear it while I walk. Flowers for Jim, my dad. If I get thousands, that would be awesome. I promise, there will be pictures!

Here's our team. We'd love your support, and thanks!

S&S Productions Team


Alzheimer's Association


And I will remember.

peace.

Flowers for Jim
PO Box 8793
Edmond, OK 73083

Friday, September 18, 2009

The cost of Alzheimer's

There are all kinds of facts and figures about Alzheimer's. I've posted some of them below, taken from the Alzheimer's Association website.

But the facts and figures don't really tell you the cost. My dad has alzheimer's. He was diagnosed at age 65. Until he was 67, he didn't let us help. He thought he was in control, the "brain thing" was just something he needed a pill for, like his diabetes. He was being scammed by a man named Bubba. We were unable to protect him. Taken for every cent he had, agreeing to thousands of dollars in debt, he was in a financial hell hole when he called us.

"Bubba's gone, I can't do this alone any more, I want to move to Oklahoma" was all he said when he called in the Fall of 2006. We had no idea how bad it was. But we helped, we moved, we put our lives on hold to get him here. He's our dad.

For 3 years, we've managed. We've seen small slips, some larger than others, but manageable with help. Until this summer. We felt he was becoming a danger to himself, he was just not managing any more. So we made the decision to put him in a nursing home. He has taken a huge downward slide. He is no longer really himself.

This week, I was on vacation. Every day, we received a call. Every day, it was worse. He's incontinent, he isn't eating, he has difficulty walking, he threw a pitcher, he hit a nurse, he threatened an aid. I went to see him and he was more occupied with the "children and animals" in his room than he was in interacting with me. I'm not convinced he knew me.

Today, they are admitting him to the psych ward in a hospital to evaluate him. Mentally, physically, medicinally, the whole kit-n-kaboodle. We don't know the steps ahead or the costs. We are observers of this life for which we also feel responsible. With no financial resources, we are also at the mercy of the system our government has in place to care for the elderly and indigent. Such a maze.

I don't know how to anticipate or prepare, so I can't. But I can wait up on the Lord and He will renew my strenghth. I can pray that the peace that passes all understanding will be present. I can trust that many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's plan that prevails. And I will.

We must find a cure for this disease. The devastation is not an isolated, individual thing. It affects everyone touched by it.

The financial costs are well documented, staggering and growing at an astronomical pace.

The emotional costs are without measure.

Here are some of the statistics from the Alzheimer's Association.

• As many as 5.3 million people in the United States are living with Alzheimer’s.

• Alzheimer's and dementia triple healthcare costs for Americans age 65 and older.

• Every 70 seconds, someone develops Alzheimer’s.

• Alzheimer's is the seventh-leading cause of death.

• The direct and indirect costs of Alzheimer's and other dementias to Medicare, Medicaid and businesses amount to more than $148 billion each year.
These are just a few of the facts in our new report, 2009 Alzheimer’s Disease Facts and Figures. The report is a comprehensive statistical abstract of U.S. data on Alzheimer’s disease that includes:

• prevalence
• mortality
• the costs of Alzheimer care
• caregiving
• a special report on Mild Cognitive Impairment and early-stage Alzheimer's

As the deer pants for the water so my souls longs for God. He is my strong tower, my safe harbour, my strength and my song. I will rest in Him and wait on Him. I will pray.

peace.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

I'm a closet beauty queen

I have always loved all things beauty pageant. I remember as a kid being allowed to stay up for the Miss America pageant. I almost always fell asleep before the end, but if I could have stayed awake, I had permission. 10:30 was late for me then...really, not that much has changed...hmmm.

Anyway, the girls were pretty, the dresses amazing, the talent-well some were really talented and the others tried hard. I could imagine being just like them. I have owned tiaras and boas. Except I am not, nor have I ever really been a girlie girl. But just like my barbies, it was nice to dream.

These days I'm drawn to shows like Toddlers & Tiaras. But for very different reasons. It's like a train wreck in tiaras. Are these really the kind of lives my remembered Miss Americas must have had? Oh gee...that really scares me. I know it's all for the kids and they LOVE doing it ***cough,gag,cough***. Really? How do they know?

I am amazed at the primping, pushing, training, sculpting, and the money that goes into these children's pageants. Do these kids have any idea of the world outside of manis & pedis? Is their $3500 dress...(sorry, I didn't spend that on my wedding dress...wait, I didn't spend that on my WHOLE wedding)...necessary?

I have 2 daughters, we've watched pageants. It never occurred to me to begin this process in their lives. I hope the parents of these little girls and boys remember that childhood is fleeting. It lasts only a short time and there is so much for these little souls to absorb before they are grown. I hope this is not all there is to what they are passing on to their kids. I hope the TV representation of these homes, parents, & kids has been edited for good TV, I get that, I've done interviews. They take 30 minutes of video and cut the 30 seconds they want to use and it says what they want it to say. Some of the facts however, are just the facts.

Here was the quote of the week for me. Coach to contestant..."Honey, you just can't get 10 pounds of sugar in a 5 pound bag." Well, coach, you can, but it's not pretty.

So here's to all the contestants, we love to watch, we cheer with you and cry with you. When the day is over, go play!!

peace.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Reflecting on 9-11

I think as an Oklahoman, I feel a special connection to the people of NYC. They helped us during dark and unsure days after the Murrah Building bombing in OKC. I remember feeling great compassion as the days and weeks unfolded after 9-11. Knowing the pain, sorrow, joy and confusion that were all wrapped together for the people and survivors. I prayed this for them then and I pray it now.

The Prayer of St. Francis

Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.

O Lord God,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

Amen.

peace.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Encouraging

Have you ever thought about how you respond to encouragement? I hadn't really until today.

I am sometimes embarrassed by encouragement. I am sometimes a little overwhelmed by it. Sometimes, I miss it because no one noticed. Mostly, I try to share encouraging words with other people because I love to encourage others.

I love to say good job, you look great, I appreciate you. I love to tell my kids I'm proud of them, they are so great, they are so smart, so beautiful, such great people.

I love to tell my husband he is my hero, my best friend, my support. I love telling him I'm proud of him. I love how hard he works and what good care he takes of me.

I don't know why receiving compliments or encouragement is so difficult. I feel so warm when I do receive it. I think I believe it, I think I even like it.

Today I was told I was talented and creative. Immediately, in my head, I said "oh sure, anyone can do what I do. I'm really not that special, he's just being nice." and then I thought "I believe him on everything else, why doubt he's being sincere now" and in the 2.5 seconds it took for all these thoughts to run through my head, I also remembered to say "thank you, that means a lot to me" out loud. As the words left my mouth, I wondered if I actually believed them. I took a little time to let them sink in. You know what, I do believe them. I am talented and creative. Other people can do what I do and some of them, even better. But that doesn't lessen the truth that I also do them well. I have been blessed by God with certain gifts and talents, I will use them to bring him glory and to feel his joy.

So here goes. I will be more encouraging and I will learn to receive encouragement in a more gracious, accepting way.

How about you? Thanks for reading my blog. I hope it's a blessing to you.

peace.

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

To those of us born between 1930 and 1979

A good friend sent me this email. I don't know who wrote it, but it reminded me of the simple days of childhood. I hope it makes you smile.

First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they were pregnant. They took aspirin, ate bleu cheese dressing, tuna from a can and didn't get tested for diabetes.

Then after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered with bright colored lead-base paints.

We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, locks on doors or cabinets and when we rode our bikes, we had baseball caps not helmets on our heads.

As infants & children, we would ride in cars with no car seats, no booster seats, no seat belts, no air bags, bald tires and sometimes no brakes.

Riding in the back of a pick- up truck on a warm day was always a special treat.

We drank water from the garden hose and not from a bottle.

We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and no one actually died from this.

We ate cupcakes, white bread, real butter and bacon. We drank Kool-Aid made with real white sugar. And, we weren't overweight. WHY? Because we were always outside playing...that's why!

We would leave home in the morning and play all day, as long as we were back when the streetlights came on.

No one was able to reach us all day. And, we were O.K..

We would spend hours building our go-carts out of scraps and then ride them down the hill, only to find out we forgot the brakes. After running into the bushes a few times, we learned to solve the problem.

We did not have Playstations, Nintendo' s and X-boxes. There were no video games, no 150 channels on cable, no video movies or DVD's, no surround-sound or CD's, no cell phones, no personal computers, no Internet and no chat rooms.

WE HAD FRIENDS and we went outside and found them!

We played in the street, fell out of trees, got cut, broke bones and teeth, and there were NO lawsuits from these ACCIDENTS. YES real ACCIDENTS.

We ate worms and mud pies made from dirt, and the worms did not live in us forever.

We were given BB guns for our 10th birthdays, made up games with sticks and tennis balls and, although we were told it would happen, we did not put out very many eyes.

We rode bikes or walked to a friend's house and knocked on the door or rang the bell, or just walked in and talked to them.

Little League had tryouts and not everyone made the team. Those who didn't had to learn to deal with disappointment. Imagine that!!

The idea of a parent bailing us out if we broke the law was unheard of. They actually sided with the law!

These generations have produced some of the best risk-takers, problem solvers and inventors ever.

The past 50 years have been an explosion of innovation and new ideas.

We had freedom, failure, success and responsibility, and we learned how to deal with it all.

If YOU are one of them? CONGRATULATIONS!

Kind of makes you want to run through the house with scissors, doesn't it ?

peace.